Future something

I’ve always needed a future something to keep me going, as I often find myself in need of a reason I can hold up to. Because yes, it’s not rarely that I don’t have enough strength within me. And that’s when I reach out. 

I need targets so I can cross them off the list. I need to countdown months, weeks, days. I need to know where I’m headed to so I can take the right roundabout exit. 

Although I know that not being in control is perfectly normal, not having anything to look forward to scares the hell out of me.